sometimes

sometimes everything feels a little uncertain. sometimes it feels like the ground is slipping away from beneath my feet. sometimes everything is a little blurry. sometimes this lack of clarity excites me. sometimes it feels like a great adventure, an enticing mystery. but sometimes, frankly, it sucks.
sometimes i am filled with excitement at the thought that perhaps life isn't mapped out as rigidly as i once believed. sometimes i am so thankful at the idea that although the beginning and end may be known, the part in between may not be so clear. sometimes i love the thought of improvisation far more than a scripted piece. but sometimes i really wish someone would hand me the lines and i would be happy to simply recite.
sometimes i am sure that God is there, walking with me and i know deep down it is in Him that my hope is found. but sometimes He seems so very far away and i don't know how to reach Him, even though every part of me hungers to know Him more. sometimes words do not comfort and i just want to be held by arms that i can physically feel.
sometimes life delights me, and i see miracles of beauty everywhere i look. sometimes i look to the future filled with anticipation. but sometimes i am tired of it all. and sometimes even one day feels too long.
sometimes i feel invincible, i feel the world is my oyster and anything is possible. sometimes i just feel small. and alone. and a bit scared. sometimes i laugh and sometimes i cry and sometimes the lines in between all these sometimes get a bit blurred through the tears and i sometimes everything feels a little uncertain.