i really do like to ride a bicycle and it doesn't even have to be mine...

so much!

i just read what i just wrote.

i have SO incredibly much. materially, and opportunity-ally, and friend-ally...

i don't know how i should feel about it. not that feeling something about it will change the situation. if the situation even needs changing. but feelings can lead to action, if any action needs taking. i don't think it's about 'need', necessarily.

an overwhelmed mixture of mainly gratitude but also some guilt, knowing i could present an argument regarding such feelings from several religious/moral/(non)western/(non)materialistic viewpoints (because this is what we do as students...) is where i find myself right now.

i also find myself very tired and supposing that my bed is probably the best direction at this present time. and leave the ponderings for another day.

londres

Yesterday at the last minute i decided to go to London for the afternoon with 2 very dear friends of mine. I don't know why i called them "dear", that's something i would never say, but the truth is they are DEAR to me. ANYways, it was nice. :o) Since i've finished my work AND I HAVE A HOUSE FOR NEXT YEAR!!!!!! Amazing!! (more about that another day...), i don't have anything i NEED to do. just yet. so, that's how i ended up in London...


...Wondering to Leicester Square to find cheap musical tickets and ending up buying them over the phone direct from theatre (o well!)...



... eating our boots meal deal picnics on the grass in the rose garden of hyde park, lying in the sun...


...having nachos (third time in less than 2 weeks!) and a drink at a very busy Garfunkels...



...sitting in our not-just-at-the-end-of-the-row-but-properly-on-the-edge- discount seats at the Palace Theatre to see BILLY ELLIOT the musical...



...and then catching the train back to Brighto while Jen and Paula stayed the night in London. I seemed to get some allergic reaction on the train and spent whole journey sneezing with eyes running, attracting funny looks from surrounding passengers (sympathy/disgust/annoyance/discomfort?)



'Billy Elliot' was enjoyable but nothing special in all honesty. Like i didn't walk away with the sense i'd been impacted by anything, like i do sometimes from the cinema or theatre. Although to be honest i don'n know how often that happens after a musical. I've only ever seen Les Miserables! I think i prefer the film. Our "restricted view" seats may not have helped and the sound seemed quite bad - often couldn't work out what they were singing (and no, this wasn't because of their geordie accents!). But there were a couple of really good dance scenes which i really enjoyed. So yeh, wouldn't be in a rush to reccommend it, but it's not bad either. Next time, i want to see STOMP...

phew.

i finished.

to celebrate, i lay on brighton beach in the sun catching up with an old friend on the phone while taking photos of the sky. happy day.

i also wondered whether the weather really was hot enough (in english terms) for half of brighton's male population (and probably some female!) to walking around topless and for people to actually be swimming in the sea. my heat sensors have definitely been dulled. a bit like what happens to your taste buds after going to India. Don't get me wrong, it was very PLEASANT, but in no way did the temperature make me want to strip off and enter the sparkling waves. this coming from someone who will swim in anything regardless of time of year, cleanliness of water, state of dress, etc.

I also may have done bit of gentle stalking of anyone that i heard speaking spanish. I'm scared i will forget it!!

last minute

i always leave things to the last minute. i stopped fighting it when i realised it's how i'm made. i always tell myself it'll get done, because it has to. And generally, it does.

Not today.

8000 words is a LOT.

Thank God for 24 hour 'late admittance allowance'. Although i'll lose 10 percent. 3 months of work and i miss the deadline by minutes.

yet i still wish i cared a bit more. it would mean i was fixing it up and finishing it right now. but the rest of life ~ living, loving, resting, people, God ~ is a lot more important to me

results day! (not mine)

everyone did really well... 2.1's pretty much all round and a couple of firsts. amazing! i helped celebrate with champagne and strawberries curtesy of the university, then burgers and an samba band (see clip) and later on much tasty food and some wine with old housemates and 'associates'.



Then a few of us went dancing. to the place that without fail has an empty dancefloor when we walk in and a very random selection of people... (the giraffe-suit guy was there but this time in a metallic all in one suit) but always ends up being fun. I went with Jo, my housemate from first and second year and partner in dancing crime to all kinds of different nights, me in my blue coat and Jo in her red, where we've attempted to copy the general style of dancing then given up and continued in our own unique 'enthusiastic' style. Last night some girls asked if Jo had any pills. That kind of jumping around arms flailing enthusiastic. Love it! But it's been months since i've gone out and i'm quite unfit! But yeh it was a good way to end - JO-KaT dancing and then the walk home through the lanes in the rain.